At first sight, it was like blinding first light, ending a thousand years of solitude, she shook my very molecules, if you lead i will follow you, request and i will attempt the impossible, at present the obstacle was just knowin her name, too focused on proportions and the grace in her frame, the haste in my thoughts just in case i became, another player in just another game? I took a seat in plain sight, announcing my existence, there was sadness in her eyes i know was kept hidden, intrigued by the mystery i made the first move, I'm glad lookin back, i would have never knew that, You are one of a kind, You are sunrays some of the time You are the mundane, you are a wonderful lie You are stubborn, a one way lover, You are comfort, you are thunder, You are rain, you are the shine X2 ------- We took it slow at first, you needed a friend to cope with the hurt, you reached out to mend, to slowly relearn, how to be your own person not revert to dependency, of course i yearned for interdependency, with these mixed signals you sending me, not sure if these wet cheeks are meant for me, I became a sin eater, malnourished, a thin creature, your sorrows worked into my skin, the gaunt within features, others cruel practices, also habits of yours, didn't find what i was lookin for, but something more. Made it clear how a cold world transforms, nothing is pure, of all my certainties I'm no longer sure, you didn't mean to shake my foundation, nor was it your mission to save this out patient, you were just you, a product of immigrants and suburban indifference, imperfect in your flaws, but to me they insignificant. Conflict resides inside, awake or sleepin', My biases force me to confront my own demons. You showed me unknown regions, where i hid untold secrets, behold, my one and only weakness You are one of a kind, You are sunrays some of the time You are the mundane, you are a wonderful lie You are stubborn, a one way lover, You are comfort during thunder, You're rain, you're shine You are one of a kind, You are every flaw under the sky. You are perfect, you are magnitudes of sublime, You are plunder, a hundred summers, You are unfit to govern Your pain is mine. --------- It became a ritual, how we got physical, your skin so mystical, apart a day I'm already missing' you. How much is lust, how much is love, how can i trust, nobody perfect, I ain't fit to judge? We both ignored dead ends that began to loom, too busy tracing circles between the same 2 rooms. She claims she just wants to dance but cant count music, she gave me a chance to lead but i felt foolish, see, I ain't no mind reader, and you cant read mine neither, i know now how my misunderstandings will mislead you, in our embrace we still remained distant, you said we could never be though we were in that instant, contradictions only to fuel the friction, should i speak or should i listen? You're picking fights but i refuse to spar with you, so torn my heart's just a ball of scar tissue, I'm certain i could go the distance, born with endurance, but its the start that's hard with no assurance, i look ahead at the road blocks between the miles, this pain is probably more ancient than the river of denial, i meant the Nile, yes, i guess i can lie to myself, while i stress to understand and dispel this image of what it means to live up to convictions, live without contradiction, to live free from addiction, free from sickness, but witness who is the most stricken, in this battle of wits who's the victor ,who's the victim? You are one of a kind, You are sunrays some of the time You are the mundane, you are a wonderful lie You are stubborn, a one way lover, You are comfort, you are thunder, You are rain, you are the shine X2 Its only when we're apart are we productive, i cant bear to participate in your self destruction, stay away from your buys ins and consumption, stay away from being undone and sunken, but i never strayed to sway you away from self hate, its because i cared, i tried to bear weight, I wanted a thing, you wanted a fling, I wanted to think, you wanted to drink, i wanted to speak, you wanted to leave, honestly, i just wanted you to be honest with me, honestly, honesty overturns any form of sophistry You followed paid models splayed in centerfolds, i swallowed my tongue not to enforce gender roles, there be more layers to this than your winter clothes, cause most paths of gold are sinister roads, all this churns as i attempt to picture a future, but you trained to exist for the now, the truth hurts, You asked if you could be replaced when the sun was set, i think back to the summer sweat, unforgettable regret, you asked what you were to me, i kept my silence, its only now that i know i should have replied with You are one of a kind, You are sun rays coming from under the blinds You are unchained, untamed,run free in your mind You shoulder burdens that keep you in line, You so sure your worthless, now you immortalized in rhyme Am I writing a song, or am i righting a wrong, oh how i crumble before the mighty and strong, You made plans that you never kept, ill keep promises ill never forget, we live in the same city yet exist in different time zones, you took me on a journey, showed me where I've roamed, but I'm a morning person, you're a night prowler, cant even eat a decent meal at the right hour,to sustain this relationship we'll need more than food, you said we don't progress if we avoid the truth, I respond we all suffer the poisons we produce, we need to struggle to claim rewards we are due. Seconds lengthen and threaten the evanescence of clear and present tension, aware of second guessin, I'm scared without intention, this mess I'm in, will either kill or it will strengthin, will steal witno apprehension, or heal a broken friendship, rebuild a bridge that's endless, now i know what fear is, i cherish every second, now i know what fear is, I regain my direction, I manifest your best intentions. Its that through destroying yourself, you fall victim to the harshest things, its disheartening, how you'll be gone when its all darkening I guess in destroying yourself you inspire me remarkably, cause you don't know how beautiful you are to me,

Meditate daily, inner peace never fails me, in this cold world, you’d be mad or just barely. Nautilus always working to scratch the surface, but all this searchin’ has got the suits at the top extremely nervous, askin’ me what’s my purpose, fall back in line, back to routines, to the way we used to do things. On a need to know basis, locked up in a state of permanent stasis, just in case this kid sparks and gets smart, assembles a team, enemies of the state lurking in the dark to keep outta reach from satellite beams that try to read thoughts and alter the dreams, causing the schemes. Cause he knows, about the School of the Americas, paramilitary online with US superiors. worldwide, baggin’ you and your next of kin, after that they go after your best of friends. Cause he knows, as execs seek public assurance, the gulf spill really is just a weekly occurrence, the shores of the south were for sure not the first hit, for sure not the worst hit, that the real slick will probably never surface. what hurts the earth always hurts the people that don’t deserve it, but their opinions worthless. Cause he knows, as we live on a spaceship, so much potential wasted, most kids don’t face it but instead choose escapin’, into drugs, into fads, into drink, into pseudo-intimacy that makes you forget to think, it is tempting to forget that your really here, once you step back, comprehend the scale, almost seem to disappear. And fade out to blackness, hearts no longer passionate, minds no longer hungry but mine is always ravenous, to even attempt losing hope would be disastrous, and therefore I won’t turn my back to this. Carry the weight of the world to the gates of hades and then back again. But most importantly, carry the fire, that’s priority, never support authority at war with minorities. Where I sleep, the cops keep you safe at night, across the bridge, the cops keep you awake at night. keep you afraid at night, wake up to find your child being taken away at night, often not being explained their rights, only to end up as a faceless statistic, jails are built and filled due to legal and illicit drug interests, tax money converted into bullets and ballistics, instead of schools, so whole generations enlist into cycles that are vicious, and that’s nothing new, merely what’s in plain view. Yet what this and other distressing issues create, motivation for some to scramble how situations relate, instead of pressing news in the press up to date, it’s printed with disclaimers, always way past the due date. And amidst the media blackout that commences, human tendencies to forget the past are relentless, so people can’t make sense of the present tempest, so it seems that the worlds senseless and conflicts endless. I can try to supplement context to the constant chatter, but I swim against the mainstream, thus it don’t matter, against nay sayers, agents of the grave makers, the slave takers, people being deceived by 2 parties and change fakers. The confused ones, the used ones, the distracted masses unknowingly contributin’ to confusion, the rat race that keep people running in circles, running in place, creating demons to run from, unobtainable standards to chase, records to break. TV telling us to consume and discard, distracted by celebrity, muscle cars with Zero APRs in double jeopardy, cold and hot reading telepathy, infographics about how others diagrams signify meaning to anything. they themselves buy against the wares that their peddling, drama every four years to elect another effigy. Political dynasties, not limited to Bush, Clintons and Kennedys, it’s business as usual , what’s most unsettling As they gaze upon the irony this brave new world’s created, brokers of uncertainty work only to perpetuate it. Those who speak up are targeted, berated not celebrated, so bugs and wiretaps following Nautilus deactivatin’. the systems calculated so people submit to enslavement. This kid’s just a zero in the equation, checks and balances makes sure he too will be lost in the mazes, or lost to the anger and hatred, a threat to no one but himself, because he can’t talk to no one else, he’s isolated. I try to stay relevant but the static ain’t lettin’ me. try move forward but the traffic is stressin’ me. Talk shit for the helluvit, though it won’t better me. Destined to burn out cause even stars run outta energy. Utilize my embellishments somethings tempting me, I try to stay relevant in spite of the penalties. Slowing killing myself like smoking menthol trees. Destined to burn out cause even the stars will eventually.